white night after all..


Didn't have a a minute of sleep all night...
its going to be a fun fun day!!

Hooray!

Damn muse strikes back

its 3am..


i am up cant sleep as my muse decided the time is NOW!

Resistance IS futile...

nothing to do but surrender, otherwise the night is shot no matter what and sketching in my book is a more viable solution after all.. fuck good night sleep!
Lets sketch the night away.. in darkness, to the light of the screen...
ha!
damn... this can go on all night.. after all the times i have been distracted and didn't sketch down the flow of ideas.. i have earned this white night...

and they flow...

The same way my writing flows, its even more distracting now as part of me finds solace in the written/typed words and the other screams: release your working hands! go buy a whole load of findings at work and go sit at your non existent bench..
still in the dark as to not wake the rest of the house who sleeps soundly in the bed all warm and inviting but sleep wont come, even when the body is tired and longs for a restful sleep before a new week begins with its fires to tend to and new distractions of routine life and routine life issues of money and where to bring it from and things to cancel and re arrange and problems to solve...


new house to hunt for and then packing again..


too much to do too Little time for it all..
so another cigarette before a new attempt at sleep and hopefully this time sleep will over take me and my muse will be satisfied some to allow for sleep to finally take over..

Dear Iron Man i think of you now at the wee hours of the night you of all people know what its like, the love-hate relationship with muses..

Me frustrated with a sketch book in the Cave..

the continuous struggle with creativity when it comes and goes and fighting to allow it an open window and time to simply lavish in it...


48 minutes later a few pages scribbled with incoherent foot notes written in poor light may i only be able to decipher them in the light of day...


fare well and goodnight (a few minutes before 4 am)

foot notes

lately i have noticed that our shared sense of humor has taken a more intimate turn, we understand each other less vocally, small gestures and GMTA* is enough to get the both of us on the floor holding our tummies.

just goes to show what two years in a relationship can do...


Intimacy Rocks!


Did i mention that i am more in love with my man now then i was 2 years ago?





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to those of you who haven't been here from the beginning:

GMTA: Great Minds Think Alike!

just one last thing...


as quoted from the latest series we have been following, "Kings":

"Pretty people are no good with the little details"


and don't get me started!

God Damn Pass-Over!!

the holidays are upon us once again, stress at work for all the half weeks and the stress over the holiday dinner , and at least that already has past..

one conclusion is from this holiday is no more big fancy flower arrangements for his MOM. worthless. she doesn't appreciate the gesture as much as i expected and therefore next year it will be a humble arrangement or something simpler like that.

we been to a wedding before the holiday (last Monday) it was fun, food could have been much better but it was fun.

had a truly awful day last Tuesday so much work so little time but i made it somehow to my Pilate session and left a quarter of an hour in with extremely runny face all frustrated and only later realizing that that time of the month+work stress+ Pilate is simply not a good equation, realization came about when i exploded like a MF on my gorgeous Man and ran off slamming doors, i am still, so lucky he knows me and understands.. and we made up quickly afterwards,

Saw Romil in Haifa!! (yey) and see her again tomorrow when she comes for her first interview at the mad house we call work.. so fingers crossed for her and the mad house who would be oh-so-lucky to have her working there!

damn mad house and its half working gals... you will not believe the amount of inefficiency i tolerate at this place.. and those of you who know me know how well i am with inefficient people and tolerating... red temper is a bonus i can hide some residue anger in the temper and get away with it.

had a good chat with My Mom she understands me and even though she is Friends with his MOM she could pin point the issues i have with her to a small notion of Taste or lack of it..

yeah, with all the winds and bells going of hides a small slightly garish persona with a loud voice and very opinionated state of mind.. shes all ways right and she should get a medal for all her efforts at raising three boys all by her self!

maybe next year we should give her a plaque to hang on the wall: "hardest working woman ever lived" she could just pull it out like a damn badge.. and she probably would..


Thank you (my) Mom for being you!

i do feel a lot better after we talked.

BTW the wedding dress combo i built was gorgeous, just wish the smoking spot was less windy.. anyways next wedding new dress and that will be a hunt on its own..

Talented boy turned older yesterday, and i forgot to call him so here to my gorgeous Goldy locks may you always have a cheeky grin on your face and a satisfied smile in your heart!!
Hope you partied hard last night and you are a happy split man today.. i miss you loads, you will be pleased to know that my Husband shares some personality traits with you and it keeps you close to my heart each time he does a Randy on me!

Also talked to my would-be-mythological-ex-if-we-ever-had-anything-going-on or for short Saint, he was surprised and pleased that after all this time and even though we hardly get to meet i always remember to call on him on his birthday.. first time we talked since i saw him last which was at the wedding, we said we will go on a double date and catch up some.. and i hope we will.. soon.. i miss him too and i would like to just have a catch up session with him and his beautiful girlfriend,

well i think that's about it for now, till next time.. love you all stay safe and comment every now and again, i don't bite too hard...

what a hectic day...

Someone up there wanted us to earn this weekend super bad...
its been a nightmarish day again.. busy busy busy..

fighting off fires at every step.. damn it..

they already said they want another girl to join the team and i already offered Romil as a prime candidate but they are still busy chasing their tail and we are still trying hard not to crumble under the stress..

we all have just a bit too much on our plates and its becoming too damn much to handle...
i asked Romil to fax over her CV to see if that will make the Bosses move in the right direction, and having one more person and hopefully Romil as the one will make wonders for me at work, finally someone i can relate to at work who understands my jokes and has made more use of the Grey goo between the ears!

i work with nice girls but i have nothing more than the common conversation with it can get lonely..

so i am hoping for a relaxing weekend of resting before the big haul of before the holidays and a wedding off course.. that's Monday and Sunday Thunder and me are celebrating our 2 year anniversary... don't know yet what we are going to do as i have a Skinny Tika session and a hair cut that same evening.. maybe we just party the next day at the wedding..

silly how these days the only time we actually get to do a fun night out is wedding related.. on normal weekends or other "night-outs" we are simply too busy or too tiered to be bothered.

so Weddings it is and as the wedding season has just started there will most likely be more.. Ally-Cat is getting married in August and there is another family wedding in June or July...

so that will probably our next nights out..


We are going to try and meet up with Romil and her Dreadlocks Husband during the pass over thingy.. but from experience i have little faith..
going to see the Dude see whats up with him, going to bitch and moan to him over coffee..

best weekend to all!

jumping Pilate Rocks!

was my first time doing the jumping thingy and its so much fun, fun like we had as kids on the playground!

today i went Polish on his MOM no worry's it was good polish, she said she didn't want anything for Pass Over and i insisted so she said that she would enjoy white flowers so i organized a flower delivery to her place from my favorite flower shop in TLV of a tall arrangement of white flowers to be delivered before the holidays, boy is she going to love those damn flowers, i cant wait to see the arrangement they will make her... She will know better next time that resistance is futile when it comes to my Polish gene!!

got my special extra from Bear man today and was informed he meant to pay me more so next month with the misunderstanding out of the way i will get a fatter envelope..

i am glad this week is almost over and a blessed weekend is upon us. last Saturday we went to Haifa and back within 6hr, it sucks!! damn Service cabs of Sabbath... (sounds like a lame glam rock album..:).

still busy busy at work but i actually love it, now that the roles are defined and they let me get on with my work, its easier, and thank god it has been a busy month..



wishing all a happy sunny peaceful weekend

been sick, got the promotion i wanted, went shopping for the holidays, and am busy busy at work.
Started work shop with Skinny Tika and am looking forwards to our next meeting.

not much else to say but welcome to my husband who is now in the followers group..
Welcome!

will update when the next worthy thing to update comes about..

Till next time..

Later that Friday...

Been toying with an idea, i know quite a few people in my field who are friends to some extant all of us struggling in our own way to succeed in this field and in a sense all seem to be looking for more input of sorts, and/or a creativity pool that can be shared to pick each others brains for ideas. i know that with at least two of those friends, when we are together ideas stream more easily, we fertilize each other bouncing off each others ideas and thoughts and come up with new and innovative ideas.

i thought of how to peach this idea, how to bring some of us together under a kind of umbrella to peach ideas at each other, to find a new way to help creating something new.
I remember fondly my sessions with Romil which have always been productive and inspiring, also in art school during design class a bunch of us throwing ideas up, then it was simpler as it was part of the deal but even there and then you have the bunch of us that could go further with each other.

Dude said something the other day that caught my ear ,that coming up with new ideas for new pieces is harder to come by, which makes it harder to sit yourself down by the bench and work.


And Skinny*Tika suggested I'll be the test bunny for her study program i am her pilot for this new and hopefully successful new venture she tests her new study program on me and see where its working where it isn't so she can tighten and soothe out the chinks out in return i get a study program that will get me somewhere further than i am today and back in synch with what i still think is some unfulfilled potential in me.

so there is hope for me too.. the more i think of it there are more friends i can think of who can find this idea interesting.. i need to throw it at a few of them see who bites, see where we can take this idea, i am still probing this idea trying to figure out the workings of it see what can be done with it..

Friday

Friday of a long week, a very exhausting week,

glad its over.

no apartment, new spot opening at work and i recommended Romil to take it, asked for a promotion from Bear man, been told I'll get more benefits which works for me
spent some time with new friends, sent off some of my second hand clothes in a sort off clear out and left with 2 new 2hand Menes shirts forgoten at my new friends place,
came home late, went to sleep past out on the lousy lazy boy couch

woke up cranky... very.... Asprin can attest: Ouch in Thunders direction... fun'ish morning.. getting better though...... Latin sounds in the back ground epitomizing for me my ideal TLV which i am beginning to like again with the prospects of moving further into..

Had quite enough of Florentina...

oh i had so up to my eye brows with Florentina.. the wannabe heaven coated with dog poop, well it came out a bit harsh,, still left over crank still left in me i guess.


Asprine my dearest, i have been thinking of Amsterdam lately very fondly, missing the greyness the beer jugging chair calling late night incriminating calligraphy, vocal feline aphrodisiacs, damn Amsterdam oui madam no madam, Amsterdam... i miss the creativity we inspired in each other,
the need us colorful people feast on, how we take flight among our own kind, when that special bond blooms upon recognition of that special glint in the eyes, something just goes "Click" and with a bit of probing and subtle questioning you feel out the others color.... me and Asprine are both purple, so is the third part of our more public circle: E, there aren't that many purple people out there but of those, i have the honor of calling 5 my friends some are closer than others physically but all are always close to the heart.

Life as a Roller Coaster

First of all..

www.asprine.net

Check this out!!

You're the man.. my dear thank you for being you!

Thank you for being there in just the right time for me to meet you even though at times w both wish we were cats in another world... ;)


so no contract signed we are thinking that maybe the place we found wasn't meant to be.

I am fine with it.. strangely...

went to skinny tika she made my rings... thought it would be a joint effort but decided to let it flow..



Bottom line they look kick FFing ass...

Asprine sent me a true art piece that he made i am so proud of him...


Mom is coming over tomorrow, will be fun, haven't spent good all Mom time, i miss her with out noticing how much till we actually meet...


Cant wait for her to see my new 2tiger rings.. they came out so cool..


me proud of me too..

well its late, good night to us all!

Hey Izzidore!

Have you noticed we have company?
two new followers have joined you in the not so empty anymore box of followers!

New followers, welcome!

Hope you enjoy me as much as Izzidore does at least... :)

Some lawyers are just to old to practice...

Damn,

We were actually looking forwards to the contract signing and then after the first greeting with the oldest FFing lawyer alive we realized that he is still living in the past and seems to think this is the first contract we ever signed and above all are out to get the land lord fucked hard...
damn idiot..

He came up with all sort of disrespectful remarks and closes in the contract that simply wouldn't do till the whole thing blew up and we told our would be land lord that we do really want to sign but not with this draconian contract written up up by the damn old lawyer..

so we hope to find another laywer who is still in touch with reality and is not so sure we are out to get the land lord's mony and time.

So we probbaly go again sundy..


*Met up with Skinny and talked some shop we should be meeting again sundy to let some muse up and creat some nice slinky tiger rings, will update on the progress no worries..
then had the worst Pilatis class ever and hated (for the first time i promise) my teacher, i mean how many times can you hear your own name called in one class to realise your having a bad pilatis day?
Not her fault though she's the same i simply couldnt get it right in my head to day so instead of a fun pilatis i had a shit pilatis day ..
no matter i am sure monday will go better...

*Checked out work mail and order staus and i will be a busy busy bee again on sunday.. which is realy good in pointing my boss in the give-her-a-rise-soon! direction... good for me even better for my bank account and Pas over is justr around the correnr...

and just before Pass over there is our 2 year aniversery and a wedding of friends where my gorgeous Red-Sonja will have her first public debute.. oh and a hair cut to make sure i stand out even more in a crowd with the cool hair the tattoo's.. (who said you can't stand out in a wedding with out being the bride... ;), so yeah alot to look forward to and thats all after the move which still has to happen on April 1st... damn busy bee me...

*Hopefully soon KipodTatto will send me pitures of my Red-Sonja so you could see for yourself how gorgeous she is and how talanted they are!!

*M is still shutting me out and i think its been over two months now...
I hope to hera something from her soon, i hope she is doing well i miss her alot..
She shied away from the world and cut me off a while back and by now she doesn't even answer my e-Mails.. quite a bummer but i hope for her that she is making some progress and soon she'll be ready to come back to the world..

*There is still so much that needs to be done with packing and moving that we siply havent seemed to get around too and i hope that soon we will get our cute buts into action.. i want out of this match box and into the new place.. so much to do so little time....
this weekend seems to be about lounging and finnishing end bits from work that i dont think its going to happen this weekend but by next weekend i believe we will be up to our arm pitts in boxes and wrraping paper as we should be, start picking up cartons and strat digging into the Packing...



thats it for now.. till later may we all have a blessed weekend!

Wow what a show!

That exhibition yesterday all i can say is wow!

some truly amazing artistic art work made with gold diamonds and other precious colorful gems..
Saw some very original intuitive remarkable pieces.

Talin's check it out, i hope by then their website will be a bit more playful.



it's exciting to see true art made with this damn expansive alloy paved and frosted with diamonds and Rubie's and Sapphires, Multy-Color Tourmaline's ... very bling-bling very wow! big (as in 10ct and up) Aqua's and Amethyst's as you can figure i was blown away..

And the one of the most inspiring artist work i have seen ther belongs to this guy: Amitay Kav
now this guy is a true Master! without sounding too girly i have to say OMG!!!

i want a piece or two or twelf of his!! damn he is so good! i am totaly impressed with his expertise, a true unique artist who does everrything himself and i do mean everything!



Got to go sign a contract now.. (ite damn early in the damn Morn!)

Till later..

Signing the contract tomorrow!

Tomorrow we are signing the contract for the new house and April 1st we are moving in!

i have to say i am a bit stressed about all the packing but i'll get through it some how.. one box at a time.

refreshed the colors in my blog and loving it all fresh and purpler.. (didn't even know that was an actual word LOL

Going to a jewelery exhibition opening today, and looking forwards to it hope i won't be disappointed.

My muse seems to be coming back to me after a long while, think it has some to do with the new space we are moving into where i have already allocated a space for a work bench and with the school being my main view from the balcony i have even less excuses not to do something about it.. hope i'll get my art going again..

Working where i work having all the findings and chains in gold and silver all around its hard to stay uninspired for too long so i hope that with the new space and hopefully some more freedom in the budget i will figure out how and how much and the rest of it..

The weekend is almost here and and with the sign up meeting happening so damn early in the morning we might make ut into a productive day..

Till later may isperation spreadits colorfull wings on us all!

house is almost ours...

WE went to the place we thought we are going to rent to find out our potential land lord doesn't really wants to rent it at least not like most land lords do. we asked for white walls and less of his furniture and he insisted on leaving all the "fancy" color effects on the walls, you go move in to a place where each wall is at least two colors and make your self a home...


not us not here not ever..
so after realizing the guy doesn't really wants to rent out we decided to call another land lord who's place we already saw and can offer us a white walled three room apartment where we could really start our lives together..
tomorrow we are going to see him again and hopefully sign the paper works and start packing our tiny stuffed home in t0o boxes and start a new in a few weeks in a new white walled larger place..

I am quite excited about it and looking forwards to the move even though i cant be bothered with all the packing but hey its part of the fun, get rid of old shit and in with the new...

slightly further away from TA but quieter and bigger!

His bro disses it saying oh its too far.. his Mom says Jaffa? and scrunches her lip with that all so familiar look of disapproval... (i say sponsor another 2000 nis a month for rent and we will move in to the nicest place in the center of town just so she can brag that her boy has a nice place in a "good" are in TA.. i say again Bullshit...)

I like that fact that its far off and quite and away from everyone.. if they want to see us they will need to take the bus over... damn shame public transport is so un cool... hahaha...


i have big plans for this new place i imagine how we will decorate and organize it i am almost wet with anticipation for the built in closet in our bedroom.. damn thing has about 5 doors... finally there will be order and space for all the cloths his and mine in one big closet!!

Where did my life go to that big spacious closets and white walls get me wet?

Maybe its this tiny place that got to me or i have finaly grew up and wanta grewn up house to make my own...
i have fantasies of curtains.. airy transparent curtains.. flowing.. white curtains..
a sunny greenery like balcony for all the cacti to sun bathe..
i dream of early morning coffee on the baloney facing green views before work...

dinners by a dining table just me and my love. friends over not sitting on top of each other but actually next to each other in a normal living space not ruled by computers and the TV...


having a real life like a married couple, maybe in a years time even extending our little family and bringing a bundle of joy to it too...


yes i want kids i want a ginger headed love child.. a few actually.. I'd like to have three.. maybe more.. ?

so house hunting again

well well i am back on the spot un-flexing my writing muscles and looking to find out if i can blog when in a good place in life or is my muse restricted to bad times only,
Mom says this is what i am good at (writing) and that i should keep at it..
so much has happened since i visited here last, not counting pre-birthday babel..
but it was nice to look back at all that happened since that last post before my 30 b-day, there was a wedding planing thingy and the white dress issue and a whole world war regarding checkered print dress until we settled on plain all bridle attire.

there is the not so new job i have been hanging on for the last year+ , its fun and frustrating all in one go, like most jobs really are.

try confining a 5 (then 4 then only 3) women in one small space(including the couple who owns the place which are a whole news bulletin of a disaster area) and the roof will blow a few times a month.. obviously,
but its challenging and fun most days, other days its something to do between 9-5 which doesn't include too much fun but pays the bills.
Hubie started his own company with mates, he's busy most of the time and i by now recoiled being married to the appendage lap top that comes with being married to a very gorgeous smart sensitive creative amazing lover Scorpio computer lover who makes his living through the damn thinking machines, it does have amazing benefits but its still a mistress.
me and the laptop have a love-hate relationship but hey it beats having such a relationship with a flesh and blood mistress...
my artistic muse is away on most days and i am left with day dreaming about all the funky jewels i could create with the large selection on offer at my job, hoping for more money or the investor that will be willing to pay for all the stuff i want to make.. i pay bills and enjoy a bit of life next to it but not much left over for these luxuries yet...

we are house hunting again, looking for a larger living space, this one is simply way yo small to accommodate us by now and that specific issue will come on the table this coming Saturday when we are hosting a family Shabat lunch including his Mom and Dad, my Mom his Brother and his brothers girlfriend... and no escaping to the spacious roof as the forecast is stormy,
meaning a very claustrophobic nerve raking lunch for us, i hope I'll come through with some colors hovering over the ground...

just the thought of the confined space with the stress of entertain the whole family and food and his Mother and mine and and and...
a tad stressful..

but it sharpened the need of a larger living space and narrowed the search to places which are above 65 square meters at least. anything less simply wouldn't do, so we are looking or I am looking and Hubie tags along for the ride.

we have seen one really nice place size wise but the kitchen was made for very small built people which is a big NO so the search is still on.
and that is where I'll be heading to now, Yad2 here i come

2008 re-cap

ok here is a quick re-cap from one before last post:
the school i signed in to didnt turn out to be what i wass looking for and i quit it quite quickly. my gorgeous Thunder took me on a weekend get-away for my b-day and proposed to me..
we set the date to October 12th and i changed jobes begining of the new year to a much better paying job where i actually use my head in its been almost a year since i started that job and i still like it.


wedding plans took over from around April and i was planing a bright purple dress for the wedding. it didn't come out right at the end and i was left at the last moment with searching for a new dress whch brought on some clashes of opinion when one of my chosen dresses was the cause of a full scale riot at home.
i ended up choosing a white simple bridel dress which was fine and comfortable and there wsa pwace at home.
the wedding was alot of fun even with a white dress...;)

i renewed one tattoo added a new wicked kitty to my right shoulder and since then have begun work on an over kill cover job. covring a small tattoo on my left upper arm with abright and very colorful winged Sonja. Painfull but worth it.
its not done yet so i am hoping on my third session we will finaly finish it.

i started doing pilatis and am enjoying it thoroughly
found a shoe designer that i adore (she sorted out my wedding shoes) and since then we have embarked on a long fruitfull realtionship and i just lately picked up my forth pair of her hand made shoes this time low cut boots. i am actually handling myself on heels

Thunder and me have had ups and downs as any couple and lately we are upnbecause i chhose not to let work and routine get in my way and affect my mood as much as before

Tomorrow we are meeting up for dinner with friends to celebrate my 31st b-day

life is good. this last year has been very exciting and a lot of fun.
i hope this coming year will be as fun as the last and even more

i wish all of us where ever we are to have a wonderful exciting productive new year

bottom line my predictions came true in the most amazing ways and have exceeded my expectaions..

happy cat

Wow It has been over a year

Well Well..
its almost my birthday and since then i have gotten married... yeah
and have been told by my new mother-in-law that she's expecting grandsons by my next birthday...
and life is grand i am maddly inlove and am so very happy.
i have tattooed Snoja with wings on my left shoulder and i have so much to write to update my ever lasting avid reader that he'll have to wait for a bit before i do so
but hey thanks for the heads up

i allways were better when upset (at writing) than when happy...
i guess that does go a long way...


good to know your still checking up on me...
here: www.ctasthunder.com
check me out at the wedding

tata

counting down to 30

in a little more than a month I'll be 30 years old. i think that i for the first time i am not so nervous bout turning 30, i feel like i'm getting a hands on my life's forward progress: i signed up back to school, starting this Sunday, I'm excited bout it think i made the right choice bout the school and the course I'm taking. i now own two matching pajamas.. silly but true, i am in a serious relationship that is healthy and real, i even confessed to my mom that i intend on being a mom my self one day.... (let the drums roll...) we spoke of tyeing the knot without a specific time line in towed. i think that for the first time i know where my life is heading as i am the one leading them i am happy with where i am in life i am happy with my gorgeous Thunder. its not all rosie but i think its good that way, when we do have bumps we talk bout them, at first i was afraid to admit when things got bumpy, having something good going on for the first time was scary but i realized in time that even a good thing can be bumpy and thats natural. we are getting more comfortable with each other and things are good and fun and healthy, funny and just like i dreamed of as a young girl making my first steps into "relationships". i am just glad i finally found what my heart desired all these years and we are the lucky ones...
life has been a constant roller-coaster for the last year or so its been fun and sad and scary..
its not all calm waters ahead either but I'm excited bout whats to come. i am coming into my own i am excited bout all that is to come, i am happy we are happy...
this coming year will be exciting!