havent got around to find a computer in a long while, alot has happend since it always does.. so it seems.. i wont recount it as its in the past and not that intresting anymore.
i've been doing some writing in my notebook that goes everywhere with me so i wouldnt loose those moments by just not having a pc to go to. i have been talking with myself alot been finding out new-old truths bout myself and who i am. i feel like i'm growing into myself and maturing in to a more productive person for myself i'm driven by diffrent things now than before sometimes i'm saddend by the changes in me as in grieving for my old more insecure self and than at times she rears her head and bites me in the arse.. allways with me.
i realized just last week that i finaly started enjoying myself being in israel. it was quiet astounding to realize it. but its true i am finaly having fun here. i'm by myself and more or less independent i'm working hard at reaching my goals and am also in the middle of some leap of faith and evolving into better awarness of who i am and what i really want from life i'm not shy bout my opinions i stand by them proudly, i am developing my own privet style and loving it, by reviews from around me i'm doing something right and good too..
yeah i am getting there with a spring in my step and a smile on my face.
i allow myself my down time and respect it for what it is. i handle it better just by knowing its part of life and tommorow is a new day and i will feel better in the morning..
i like my self way more now than a year ago and thats for sure..