Monday, April 17, 2006

been a while...

yeah i've been away for a while..
been bussy with work and with my new place which does'nt have internet.. so whats been up since then? well alot actually... Princss moved to my place, and is doing well there.. me and Chef are sill seeing each other, another reason why u have'nt been around online.. its going good and i am really enjoying being with him, its chalanging at times but the dialoge with my deamones is still on and i am learning to except whats on offer the good with the bitts i havent yet fully hoped for but as it was all up front on the table, it is my choice if to stick around with it or not. and at the moment i still think its worth it even though at times its a bit more then i thought i'd bargaine for. it's the issue of exclussivety which is something i at time find hard to except. but it was never offerd so i have no claim to it..
deep dwon i do wish he would offer me that exclussivety but he isnt he never witheld it from me so time will tell, at times i find it really hard to handle but its doing me so much good to be with him that i will see what happens.
its his birthday this coming friday and i am proud to say that i think i found him the perfect gift in my small budget. i got him a really nice Rittzenhoff glass ashtray... it wasnt cheap and i think he would know to appriciat it... dont know what are the plans for his birthday but i hope it would'nt be too stressfull on my heart, its hard for me to share my man with another but as he is not mine i have too.. i hope to learn to manage and evolve with time and maybe even learn how to enjoy it even more, the idea is arousing in many ways and still i fear those moments of sharing bed with my alfa male with another female...time will tell...
i thought about this quit alot and i do belive Bastt sent him to me with alot of purposs as he is in many way what i asked for and you always need to remember the consequnsess of your wishes and that nothisg is as simple or easy as it seems like in your fantasys.. but it does teach you alot about your self and builds character... i know i can only grow from this and that if i'll open my self to th ideas of chang i will surprise my self with where i can go and what i can do.

Thank you Basst for sending me this amazing man with all the deamons have to say bout it.. i truley thank you!

2 comments:

IsidoreDeKass said...

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red-headed-cat said...

what?
it has been awhile...
i'm happy and very very busy...
scholl i almost over and i'm busy working on my final projects..
i'll try calling you, maybe you'll pick up..