here's something i jotted down friday night..

what is it with you guys?
why do you complicatethe simplest things in life?
why can't we trust you to grow up and speak your mind?
what makes it so difficult for you to deal with us that turns growen men in to todllers when the time comes to say it like it is?
why do most of you prefare"fading out" instaed of just saying no?
rejection is allways a posibilitywhen we go after you (waiting for you to grab your balls and go after us is to damn tiering), but we still put ourselves out there and have a go..
why cant you stand up and really be men all the way and say it like it is?
is being an arse prefable to being honest?
do you fear us?
do you find us (me) too intimidating? am i too much for you to handel?
what is so terefying about being honest?
am i the "lone ranger" in beliving that honesty is the best policy?
is there ever going to be a man who can stand up to me and not try to tame me and fit me into his mold (cheff i'm talking bout you!!)?
am i so diffrent to you that facing me is so scary?
or do you dread i'll turn all "fatal attraction" on your arse?
that i'll bite your head off?
where are the men who who could stand their ground and not cower in shame while facing me as i am in all my "awasome power"?
you all come off so sure of yourself and balsy and when i respond to you as i am you go run for cover and fade out leaving behind nothing but a pair of balls hanging in your spot..

my wall of shame is getting crowded damn you weak men..
do you see us as to fragile to withstand rejection? do you hate yourself for not being all that strong like your suppose to be as socsity says you should be?
and still you complain that we play games and that you want things to be straight farwards..
and when your finally face someone who isnt playing games and tells you what they want and how you like it you cant handel it.. it scares you shitless..
why is honesty so over rated? and still everyones voicess their claim to honest no plays deal while lying through their teeth..
honesty is cherished like some old unacchivable virtue.. unacchivable being the main point it seems..

another one bites the dust, another head on the wall.
another expectaion for something more blown on an idiot who cant handle it no matter how much he claims to be after it..
why do you keep lying to yourselves and me, that your diffrent and evolved, when you really are quouting what the magazines say you should..

go back to your safe gray box and dont tease my time..
i still have some faith in your kind but its running out..
dont want to end up like the lonely cat lady at the end of the street who just gave up on humens ever understaning me or feeling like i was born in the wrong fucking era.. way ahead of my time..