T time is here, i have come to realize that i can't un-know what i know any more.
i need to face the truth and hope that it wont slap me in the face. i care for him more than i'd want to admit and now it's time to face the music and i am terrified. scared shitless.. don't know how to go about it and i know that i have to do it.
i hope it will go reasonably well and that things will move on to a better future .
and yet its hard to breath hard to think but i'm trying to be optimistic and hope for the best.
i thought a little while back that this might never happen to me again and now i hope my heart wont shatter. he is on his way home, he is getting a promotion at work and hopefully i could add my own promotion to the pot too..
only thing is he isn't coming home alone so i might have to wait some more before i get round to it.. not sure if its a good thing or not but thats the way the cookie crumbles so we shall see how it goes..
my tummie is all cramped and the butterfly's are soaring high..
Goddess save me..