its close now very close, scary close. soon i'll be exposed totally and from there there is no way back, not that i'd regret loosing my Armour just that i got used to it, but i am kind of excited bout it too..
i can't put all the blame on him but he is helping, and it isn't such a painful thing to feel your Armour crumbling all around you, when the way it usually happens with me is through really strong climaxes..
and so yesterday we had a a really good session that left my eyes leaking, i was still afraid to let him see it but he got a hint or two bout it and he seems to be dealing with it just fine..:)
i have been having strange dreams since then, my first ex showed up in my dream after years and i do mean years that i haven't thought of him.. we had some kind of confrontation in my dream but i cant remember over what. and then the other day i dreamed of my last ex (the cook) and again it was a confrontational dream.. i know its all connected somehow, comes together with the Armour breaking down, maybe i am finally letting go?
time will tell.
good night and good luck to us all!